Do you remember?
I remember before Luke was around. Of course, my memory is jogged by photos of AGMF, Year 12, and some other mixtures. I wish that he was there in those times (though I guess he was, just not with me…), to see everything and to experience everything. I wish that his high school years weren’t as crap as he says they were. I wish they were more like mine.
I think that this is part of relationship, part of love, part of marriage. Wanting the other person to be part of your life, even back when they weren’t, and even knowing that things would never have been the same if they were.
But now we’re married. We have a BAZZILION photos to remember it. But sometimes I still feel like Luke isn’t experiencing all of my life, and I want him to be.
I want him to experience my job, my nights alone, my phone calls with mum, my motivation to clean, my cooking…
And sometimes I just want to be by myself. Sometimes I get really used to be being by myself, and that worries me. If we are both always working, and only spend short amounts of time together, what will happen when our circumstances change? Will it be like being a newlywed all over again? I don’t want to be part of a couple that never sees each other. I want to be part of a couple that takes walks together and does events/ things TOGETHER.
Any suggestions what they could be??
