Every Day

What kind of things do you do every day?
Every day I:
Sleep
Wake Up
Kiss Luke
Eat
Watch TV/Movie
Email
Check my social networks

If you think about it, THESE are the things that make up who I am. Even though they aren’t my passions or my ‘loves’ necessarily (kissing Luke is the exception here!).

All this reflection, and a little post over at Carina’s Craftblog left me thinking I need to make the same resolution that Carina did. I NEED to do something creative

EVERY

SINGLE

DAY

So in order to do this I’m assembling a few embroidery designs that I want to make, as well as always having my pen and sketch book handy. I’ll be posting photos of what I do over at my Talia Carbis Tumblr Blog, as well as some updates here.

Here you can see my first update from yesterday:

Things sitting next to the media PC: sunglasses, mouse, shofar. Artline fine 0.4, in visual journal (quill). 14/2/10.

Tags: creative, drawing, embroidery, link, tumblr

Haunted…

I’m not really sure how to start this post, write in it, or end it… all I know is that the other night I met up with a friend of Luke’s who I haven’t seen in years. He asked me if I still painted, and when I said no, he just looked down at the table, nodded his head, and said “that’s a shame”.

And now I’m stuck, and I keep playing it over and over in my head. That was who I was. Such an integral part of me, and now it… isn’t? And someone actually think’s that that’s a shame? How did that HAPPEN??????????

… and I just don’t know what to think, or how to feel, or what to do…

I guess I’m disappointing in myself? Angry with myself? But I’m also tired and unmotivated.

Lately I’ve thought about painting every day. And I’m scared that I’ll never do it again. But every day I go to work, and I make dinner when I get home, and I think to myself, “Talia, be a better wife and clean something for goodness sake!“, and I clean something small, or watch TV with Luke, or just generally waste my time.

I let every day slip away, and I do nothing with it.

Tags: art, creative, day, haunted, me, paint, painting, ross, whoamI?

Drawing Releases My Creativity

I come from a creative family. My childhood involved a lot of painting (on paper, ourselves, and the veranda), dress-ups, collage, and projects with boxes. We had a box in the cupboard which was always full of old cereal boxes, egg cartons, toilet rolls and other handy bits like ribbon and paint. Each christmas we’d make things to decorate the house, and at the start of the year we’d make covers for our books.

Despite all this creativity, I was never good at drawing. I still did it though. Sometimes. But Rhys was the drawer. In fact, I think he was generally considered to be the creative one. Though we all had our creative quirks.

I’ve always like art. Painting mostly, and now I’m also into ‘crafts’- which is good, because I can learn so much of that from Nanna. It’s been a while since I painted. Despite the encouragement from my husband- I just haven’t had time. When I finish work I want to crash, not be creative and alive. Lets face it, being creative makes you alive. At least it does for me.

In the last few months I’ve been feeling more then a little creatively drained. I can’t think of anything in particular that has drained me, but I think that exhaustion/busy-ness is what’s stopped the creativity flow through me. I was feeling dead. In the last few weeks though, I’ve been slowly, slowly increasing my creative levels, and in the process, my happiness. I’ve done this through drawing. :-O

I’m not a particularly good drawer. I can see things, and put them onto paper, which I guess is drawing… But I’m best at copying. So what I’ve been doing, is forcing myself, every 1-2 days to draw/copy something.

Sometimes I scan the inter-webs for cute pictures, and I print them out and copy them. That’s copy, not trace. They’re still a little bit of me- and I get comfortable with the way pictures work, and I trust myself to draw cute things. The first time I did it, the other week, it was the most amazingly crazy experience. As in, my world was thrown upside down and my brain was going crazy- like it hadn’t in so long. I may have been drawing things that other people had thought of, but I was still utalising that Right side of my brain!! It was indescribably. I guess (I don’t know) it would be something like being high… My work was spinning, and there were colours everywhere, and the words people said were beautiful typography… oh wait, that’s just normal life…

The point of all this is to say, if you’re feeling a little creatively drained, then pick up a pen, draw some squiggles (even if they’re of nothing), and let the creativity flow!

Tags: copy cat, creative, drawing, inspiration, painting