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Does this mean I want one?
Lets get a few things straight. I don’t particularly want to write this, but think it will be helpful in the process of getting over… this. So here I go trying to explain my life away…
Who I was Two Weeks Ago:
- Slightly stressed at my job, but generally excited about where we’re going and what we’re doing.
- Somewhat of a ‘career woman’- wanting to make a difference in my industry, and achieve some sort of recognition for it.
- Happy with our (read: Luke, Pepper and I) plan for the next few years.
- Excited about planning a holiday for the end of next year- Italy.
- Wanting to have a baby, but happy to wait for the year or so until we start.
- Feeling steady on my feet with God, House, Work, Life.
- Struggling with the fact that even though I want a baby, I don’t want to leave work (I know TECHNICALLY this doesn’t have to be, but for me, it does).
- Enjoying going off to the Goldy and what not without much of a bother/plan
Then my good friend Sarah called (I was her bridesmaid last year) and told me she was pregnant. And I was… jealous. I didn’t meant to be, and I didn’t want to be. Like I said above, I’m HAPPY with how things are- with our plans and our future and my work.
So what does this mean? Every time I read her facebook status about morning sickness, or being pregnant, or anything about it my head caves in, my chest pangs, and I remember that so many people I know are popping them out- people who got married at the same time, or before us. Does this mean that I WANT a tiny person to grow inside of me and then cause me unbelievable pain, all before they start to cry and poop and make me wake up before 7am?!
To top it off I’ve had the inevitable question asked “When’s it your turn?”, more then usual, which actually doesn’t help one bit, and makes me think that maybe our plan needs revising (though we all know that with Luke as my husband, if this time frame gets revised it is only going to go in one direction- further away).
So I’m writing this in the hopes that the ugly green monster will go away, now that I’ve showed the whole entire world who he his, and why he’s here. And I guess I should remember this feeling, because in two years time, when I am up the duff, someone else might be feeling this way about me…
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Sarah & Dean
Last weekend I was a bridesmaid for my friend Sarah. Their wedding was at the House of Laurels at Maleny- it was so beautiful and a lovely day. Here are some pictures for your viewing pleasure!!!
Delyse and I
Naomi’s favourite part of the day… flats in the wet ground!! (they were really high heels…)
My hair. This was taken at like 4pm, and I had it done at 8am. Secret: LOTS of hairspray!!
Tiff and I. Team “T”- both Green, both have “T”s around our necks.
Wearing the boys jackets. SO cold!!
Tags: bridesmaid, dean, delyse, green, maleny, naomi, sarah, T, tiff, wedding
A new diet
It is only 3 months till Sarah’s wedding, at which I am a bridesmaid. I want to look good in general, but I also want to look good for this special day!! There’s nothing worse then ugly looking bridesmaids to ruin your wedding photos!
I’ve been doing Weight Watchers for AGES now, and in the count down to my own wedding I lost quite a bit of weight, and have slowly put it back on (mind you, the I only lost like 4 kilos, and that’s all I’ve put back on 9 months after the event). At WW (weight watchers) there are two plans, the points plan, where you count how many points you eat each day, and the core plan, where you can eat as much as you want- as long as you don’t over fill yourself, but only from a list of certain foods.
I’ve been on the points plan this whole time, but finally spoke to my leader, Cathleen, about what I can do to actually LOOSE some weight, not just stick on this one weight. So she suggested changing plans- because I’m unsure of what I’m able to eat, I’m more likely to only eat the right things, and not just assume that I can eat something.
So I’m starting on the core plan today. So far it hasn’t gone all that well because today is Wednesday and I get a free lunch at work. Usually it’s just salad rolls, so I can just have a salad without the roll, but today it was fajitas. 
Luckily you get 21 points to use in the week ON TOP of your core foods. So I guess I will just put it into that!!
I’m also starting the etools thing, which is tracking online, and you can also put your recipies into it, and it will tell you how much a serve of it is!! Which I think is pretty cool.
Tags: 21, bridesmaid, core plan, diet, etools, new, points, sarah, ugly, wedding, weight watchers
